Can anyone explain...or?

I thank God i have food and clothes, Im not being ungrateful, its just that im a dependent but how will i look after myself when Im failing. Am I supposed to be an xtra burden to my parent who doesnt have a permanent job...how wil I know that he can support me next year and the next-yeah, ill live by faith, but failing just makes me more vulnerable to nothingness. I think I need academic success more than most becos its BASIC to my survival. And I dont even have a study permit for the next semster.So why out of all the fat priviledged human beings would problems mount on the emaciated being trying to just get by through life?Why do problems pile up on the afflicted?? AND its not like I wasnt styudying so dont blame that on me!!